After all the experiences i had and all the doctors i have talked i am sure that i am beyond repair. I dont know how this happend or get evolved inside me. Maybe because of i got molested by a relative when i was a child maybe its just happens and there is no explanation to it. Being a satyriasis is killing me. I cant have normal realations with no one and everyone i talked to treats me as a freak or a perv or something worse. Saying i am just acting this way. "You are allways talking about sex, thinking about are you just exist for this?" Yea i fucking like to act like a perv just for fun and ruin my life. After this point just want to live in a mountain in Alaska by myself. Like in the movie Into the Wild. Maybe after that no one treats me like shit cause i dont believe nobody is gonna accept me, my hypersexuality and the other kind of bad things (my face and etc.)